If you are a regular reader of this blog, you may have already read my two posts Me, in Search of Self and The School From Hell, both of which are precursors to this post. I mentioned in the latter that my home situation had deteriorated and I was becoming increasingly suicidal. Someday, I will explain what was going on, but I put it off because I’ll have to relive a lot of trauma, and I’m not ready for that. So anyhow, I dropped out of school, which dashed all my college dreams, and left home. It was either that, or I was going to kill myself. For about the…